To go back to A-levels or not to go back

I seriously have given up on A-levels! Llooking back on my first year, it was a complete waste of time. I felt like I was there because of the people at church or my parents. I went to Bsix because I didn't like anywhere in my area and I still don't. If there was some super cool intensive Film/Drama college I would so go to it. Almost like getting an A-level/B-tech whatever you want to call it.

After exams I was just like I have given up on education for now and I know everyone says that after exams, but I seriously gave up on education and I am still like that now. I want to go to university, but not in the UK. I want to take time out, travel South America, learn Spanish and work in TV and Film production, even if I start off as a directors assistant or a runner, getting cast and crew coffee. There are steps I have to take to getting to the pace I want to get too, then again God can break the rules for the ones he loves.

I am now thinking that maybe I should find something else which will benefit my life more than A-levels and doing exam after stupid exam and not being happy before and after them. Failing them and being unhappy with the results I get, yet no giving up and trying even harder and still not producing a good result, but good enough to move on to the next level. I said at the beginning of year 12 that if anything happens I REFUSE to repeat a year if it means not completing A-levels oh well. At the end of it all it is all left up to God to show me the path. So here I am asking to go back or not to go back?

xoxo

Mazzie

#iconfess and my confession to friends

OK so on Twitter last night 16th June 2010 there was a worldwide trending tweet called #iconfess, now to be honest it was fun confessing things that were more like guilty pleasures. I remember tweeting "#iconfess that I used to like Justin Bieber" and year that is the truth.

Now lets talk about this thing called confession, I love that word confession, it can make or break a person or people. I know I have things to confess, but I will not confess it over the internet, want to know why? There are just some people you don't confess to. There are people you know who are just waiting to hear something about you that will crush you.

To be honest I have been so closed up with my life that I won't tell anyone anything. Right now I don't really have anyone that I can confess my deepest darkest secrets to. In some ways it is bad because although I have God's backing, it is unhealthy to bottle things that you should share. For now I am being really cautious about the people I call friends. Friends is not a word I throw around now, I can now see through people who do or don't want me in their life. Those people who obviously don't want me in their life, I've stepped out so when you see me don't act like you like me, don't even bother giving me a hug. Talk about personal space!

When people "forget" to invite me out it doesn't really bother me. I mean I'd rather stay away from all the drugs, sex, violence and drinking. However it is funny when you do look after drunk people, especially when they tell you how much they love you. It's nice but if you can't show it when you are sober....SORRY MATE!!!

Sexual Purity....What's the big deal? PART1

Hello and good evening on June 1st 2010. How you doing?

Well I have been thinking about this a lot and I think it's about time I come out and say it. What the hell is sexual purity all about and is it relevant in todays world that we stay sexually pure? Well for those who know me, YES! YES! YES! It is the most important thing to me, mentally, emotionally and physically. I want to stay with like minded people who's minds are pure, in some ways it's like a safety belt for me. There has been events which have uprooted this question in my life, my closest buddies will know why. I know so many people in college and all they talk about is sex, believe me I had to stop talking to them because it was way to much. I don't really want to know who and how you banged on the weekend.

By now you may think this is typical coming from a church girl, but believe me I haven't always believed in Christ. I only started believing in God for the last 2 years and just because I went to church since birth doesn't mean I believed in GOD.

Any way, as I was saying sexual purity is a good thing. I mean think about it, do you really want to tell your future partner about that one night that you regretted, imagine the embarrassment and being ashamed. If I was a guy then I would really like it if my girlfriend told me she had sex with 50 other guys than me. YUCK!!!

Then again you may be thinking "who the hell are you to tell me to sexually pure, I can shag whoever I want", well you are right I have no right to tell you that as it is all based on opinion, but everyone needs a bit of authority in their life.

Love me, hate me or bitch about me for this, just giving telling you what is in my heart.....

Part 2 coming soon

XOXO

PENTECOST!!! GOD RULES!!

Friday 21st May, I went to a Christian live event called PENTECOST and I have to say it was probably the best live event I have been to so far. Praise and worship was so amazing, I am so glad that I knew most of the songs otherwise praise and worship wouldn't of had the effect it had that night. Praying for this generation, the UK and the church to raise leaders to show the Glory of God within them, to draw people to Christ. I saw young children raising there hands and praying and singing to God, just shows that you are never too young to be blessed.

I was praying with this girl, (God forgive me for not remembering her name) during the course of the night and as she was praying with me I felt the presence of God within her. Sounds kinda weird right? But I felt it and I know she will end up being a virtuous woman for God and unto Christ alone. God was really there and all that mattered that night was God and the only thing that should matter is God.

I advise you guys to start having faith, because without faith you are nothing. If you believe and proclaim that something great is going to happen it will happen. If your friend invites you to church one time, GO! You will have fun. Get out the mentality that you will be out of place. The people who have helped me with my walk in Christ are the people in Church, so I would like to thank the cool dudes and dudettes at Hillsong London, I haven't know you guys for very long, but I believe God is going to do something great while I am with you guys. Also the Winners Chapel dudes and dudettes, I have known you guys for the last 2 1/2 years and it has been so amazing watching all of us grow in faith.

Love you all in Christ we stand.

xxxx

People taking the piss

OMG!! I have had enough of people in my drama a group, they never do any work and always cuss each other. I am not failing for no-one....why the hell did my teacher put me in a play when she knew the people in it don't do any work, what they frick is that all about?

I wish I was doing PSYCHOSIS so badly.... Man the people I work with suck.....

and the prick who can't be bothered to turn to lessons because he is always talking to girls, needs to grow up....how the hell is he going to get a date if he is late to class?

OMG!!!

xxx

Hillsong REP UR ENDZ!!

OMG!!! I went to my first ever Hillsong Church Youth group. All the youth from across London and Surrey and I have to say is that there are teens and children who do take their faith and God seriously.

I didn't take pictures, but all I have to say is come to the next one and I will be going to Hillsong youth CAMP 2010....I met a bunch of cool people there as well, big up to CASCADE, SAVANNAH, REMI, JIMENA and a bunch of others who names I cant remember but will be seeing on Sunday.

CIAO!!

xx

Heya Guys

Hi

Mazzie here I have started blogging again, as I feel the need to do so again.

Blogging is a way to let myself go...

God Bless y'all

xx